How do I feel after meditating for 30 minutes? First thought is my brain is almost familiar with 30 minutes module. I stopped at 28 minutes! Another thing is noticing the thoughts that flow through my mind during meditation: mostly related to work and to social media- how to perform, how to be liked and admired. This is my ego talking. I want less of this. Gratefulness for the house I live in, fir my family, for my life. I had a wonderful summer- vacation, work, travel, swimming in the water in lakes, pools, ocean. I felt free. I don’t want to feed the “less”, “lack of” thoughts. I need to rest and settle in nyc- this is my first tuning in real thought. It takes a moment. And then slowly focus on my creative and performance work.
I feel some anxiety with the near future during meditation. I also feel my mind drifting and sometimes I’m fast and notice it right away, but other times it takes me longer to remove myself from the thoughts maze. I change between anapana and vi passa a and feel vipassana is sometimes harder- it takes me a while to feel a part of my body with intensity.