The ambient sounds were confronting today. And I am tired so getting up was more difficult (inner roommate) and although I thought I had chosen a practice from exploration and kindness it feels a bit like discipline that I decided to do it at 7:30 each morning. But this is also something I truly desire to do: my meditation in the morning. And keeping my eyes softly open is hard after two years of closing them!! I find how much of a jolt it is to do meditation slightly differently because I’m so used to my own.
Today I woke up exhausted. I set the volume on the guided meditation lower and this was better. I noticed my mind going to all sorts of doom and gloom scenarios about my singing. Then I came back to the breath. I also was aware that one big factor was lack of sleep.