Saturday 14 November Day 8 Second Week of Anapanna – lots of resistance to evening practice
Sunday 15 November Day 9 still reluctance to evening practice
Monday 16 November Day 10 decided to listen to one of the mantras tonight – the Ram one very powerful!
Tuesday 17 November Day 11 – someone kept coming into my practice this morning and I made the note to remember and journel it and now I cannot remember who it was, hopefully it will come back to me!
Wednesday 18 November Day 12 – major reluctance to practice and had a very bad day today, emotional, crying
Thursday 19 November Day 13 – continuing reluctance to practice in fact feel very strongly not to do it so haven’t meditated for 2 days now
Friday 20 November Day 14 – had a speaking engagement today and was a panelist, felt I waffled and didn’t actually say anything meaningful that could help anyone! Still no practice
Saturday 21 November Day 15 – model in fashion show for breast cancer, feel angry that this is my new normal world now filled with people that have breast cancer and that I should be given gifts on the fact that I am a breast cancer survivor!
Sunday 22 November – Day 16, finally back, morning meditation done, evening meditation done
Monday 23 November – Day 17 morning practice done! Approval for additional surgery came through so am now stressing big time