I’m a bit late with my journaling. I chose to do Vipassana for the first two weeks, 15 minutes morning and evening. After two days of practice, I’m already having huge motivation issues. I think it’s mainly my mind playing games with me, also because the technique is new to me and I’m scared.
The technique itself seems to have a very calming effect on me. Beginning of each session I feel like I’m not going to make it through the 15 minutes, my thoughts are bouncing all over the place. As we know, th hardest part is showing up. Once I accept my frustration and get myself to focus on the essential, I can even get to the flow state and then I’m surprised to hear my alarm ring. I find it interesting that the more focused I’m during the meditation, the more relaxed I feel. It’s visible as well: my husband told me last night that he can see the difference in my face, before and after.
I’ve noticed that I have more difficulty tuning in to the left side of my body. The right side I can feel almost straight away. Sometimes if for example I’ve been focusing on the different parts of my arm, the arm feels warmer after having gone through it in my thoughts. Interesting 🙂