Day 8:
Vipassana continuing! I’m getting more subtle sensations in my scalp now, I’ve started to feel how my blood circulates. Very interesting. Sometimes I wonder if I should have more specific spots in my body I should feel. The problem is that sometimes when I might think about my left shoulder for example, I just can’t feel it at all. And then the thought of “what next” distracts the flow.
Distracting thoughts are still going very strong, especially in the evening because I’ve been practicing singing all day and I can’t help but hear different bits of Figaro playing in my head. I guess I’m learning it even when I’m not consciously learning it!
Day 10:
Morning session: I had this horrible headache when I woke up. Now as I was doing my meditation, I could hardly focus on anything because of feeling the pulse on the left side of my head. As I was focusing (with curiosity!) on the different parts of my head where I could feel my pulse, the pain somehow got easier and even disappeared sometimes. I didn’t get very far with my body scanning. Also, my thoughts were going to this unresolved audition situation. It was very hard to take distance to my thoughts. I almost stopped two minutes before because the pain and my thoughts were so overwhelming, but I decided to give myself another try. Two minutes goes by like nothing now. I’m congratulating myself on not giving up, though it was a particularly hard session.